Monday, November 19, 2012

My Own Happily Ever After!

DISCLAIMER: I have changed the names of individuals and places (to protect the privacy of the individuals involved); I may have changed some identifying characteristics and details such as physical properties, occupations and places of residence.

Just a mere year later.... and I wasn't even done with my blog/journal yet... Miraculously, I found my twin-flame soulmate of the highest order in the reality realm. She was (and still is) my one in a googol chance! Yes, she is that rare of a gem. It could happen to you. It happened to me! *Smiles softly* What took Chemmy thirty-four years to find, I found in less than three years. Perhaps I was blessed by God? That He/She has smiled down upon me? I'll never truly know.... All I know is that SHE IS my highest truth, my highest hope, my grandest dream, and my grandest vision. My true Path in Life.

The way I met Redsoul mirrors & echoes the way Chemmy met her own soulmate in the Xenaverse.... "because of my writing." *Deep sighs* As for the concept of Romantic Friendship, there are women out there who want them, though they do not always realize that this is what is missing in their lives. Like Chemmy said, not everyone can understand a Romantic Friendship. But for some, it is very important and the lack thereof can leave an aching in their soul.... I can tell you that they exist, but sadly, I cannot tell you where to find them. In fact, Redsoul found me (and not the other way around).

*Voice quivering slightly* Very ironically, her name (in this beautiful professional portrait) is Gabby. Whats more, she also has kind green eyes, is of traditional white Anglo-Saxon heritage, her middle name strikingly resembles almost exactly as Reene, and she too lives deep in the heart of Texas.... Just like Reene O' Connor/The Battling Bard herself, Gabby is also a soft-spoken individual, a moderate to mild conservative, and a relatively shy girl (an introvert if you will) in real-life. She also possess many characteristic traits of The Bard too. Naive, all-trusting, gentle as a dove, loves God & Jesus Christ FIRST, quite laidback and a calm attitude, has deep patience, respectful towards others, very affectionate (only with me!), thinks with her logical-rational side of her brain, very bright and amazingly knowledgeable too, kind, warm, sensitive, inexperienced and sheltered, has that unique dry sense of humor I so love, honest to a fault, see the good in people.... and filled with so many morals/values (even beliefs) that the actual on-screen Gabrielle goes by. On the downside, she's kinda bad at expressing herself fully in a letter and/or an email format (just half-kidding!) Hey, nobody's perfect, not even me sweetie.

Our daily two-hour and fifteen minutes (approximate) conversations online, except for Sundays, are filled with a warmth and gentleness that I've never experienced before.... A peaceful & perpetual sense of quiet inner calmness within me that my eyes have not seen, my ears have not heard, and my mind has not conceived. Our affectionate chats are so genuine that it at times seems in fact, surreal. With Redsoul, I don't have to "pretend" (put on a masked face) at all nor attempt to be "someone" that I'm not in reality, fake exaggerated things and/or embellish details about myself, hide behind fancy words/gobbledygook; etc. None of it. I can be one-hundred percent myself with Gabby. Be emotionally-naked with her.

Gabby (aka Redsoul), born on June 26th 1987 in Clyde Texas, is a pure Christian "homoromantic" virgin like myself. She is just 3 years younger than me but for some reason, I look younger than her. FYI, we met back in exactly November 14 2011. Just five days shy of my twenty-seventh birthday. In an email that she sent (to me) that I will never forget! It was unexpectedly very short in length, openly blunt not to mention quite frank, however genuinely honest & concise (getting her point across right away). The overall nature and tone of her letter was very.... unique. Like nothing I've ever received before.... I just couldn't stop thinking about it.

We, as specifically stated in my blog/journal, both wish for a long-term intimate romantic, monogamous but nonsexual relationship with one another exclusively. I learned that she, like me, lives with her own elderly parents (Elizabeth & Johnathan Wilde) in a middle-class religious nuclear family. In fact, like myself, she was practically raised as an "only child" since her sisters (Jessica & Martha) are MUCH OLDER than herself. Yet unlike me, Gabby had been strictly homeschooled all her life while I went to private Catholic schools. She currently works at a local Deli (part-time job) for the Lawrence Brothers Supermarkets company; near her own home.

We do "totally click" in several areas, and have significant things in common. We both wish not to have kids, have a love for animals, don't drink/smoke/take drugs/have tattoos, live a simple idyllic life in a domestic partnership as lifelong "asexual lesbian" companions, and generally have the same political/philosophical worldviews. Like me, we're just basically spiritual people that's all. Nothing complicated. FYI, Gabby belongs to none of the Christian denominations listed, but identifies herself as deeply "spiritual."

We've been intensely talking to each other since May 2012. You know..., really deep touchy-feeling chats. The ones in which we have to "really think" about certain sensitive topics/broaching subject areas very carefully... Yes, our discussions can be emotionally-draining sometimes. *Soft sigh* However, we both also love to "just talk" about virtually anything in particular too (i.e. jokes, life stories, our everyday dreams, insecurities, failures, achievements, hopes & fears). My favorite part was when I learned her dad almost accidentally killed her (with his personal handgun) while Gabby quietly tiptoed to the fridge to get ice VERY LATE at night. That was absolutely hilarious! Definitely AFV quality material.

Last but not least, we also have a "mutual admiration" towards the Xena Warrior Princess show as well (but I'm the only one obsessed with it!) LOL. She and I also share a love for the ol' Fried Green Tomatoes movie back in the early 90's. And just now, we recently discovered we both love to play Scrabble, a classic board game. Players score points by forming words from individual lettered tiles on a gameboard marked with a 15-by-15 grid. The words are formed across & down in crossword fashion, and must appear in a standard valid dictionary. It seems we've bonded over that too! *Winks

Loving Redsoul, my devoted, faithful and most loyal follower (the 19th one to be exact) in my blog/journal and (hopefully) in the offline world too, helps me understand how to love God more intimately. How holding His/Her hand might also bring tears to my eyes because of the sheer beauty of a wonderful (and intensely romantic) love! In fact, I'm dedicating my entire blog to her. Giving her a hardcopy version of my e-book to Gabby as a gift (for her) to treasure for all time to come. Its funny.... *Far-away look in my eyes* All I did was simply sit down at the computer with my thoughts alone, in a little tidy office room.... and my ideas have so profoundly affected her. As if her soul had been written across the LCD screen. Literally. She even had a "burning desire" to meet the author herself.... Me. Lillian Marie. The urge was so strong & powerful that she couldn't ignore it. Gabby simply thought I was a goddess, period. *Light chuckle*

As Vicky & Rachel in Newfoundland once wrote to me: "I wouldn't quite say I stumbled upon your blog, as I was looking for this content specifically. However, I wasn't quite expecting to find something like this-- so personal. I'd like you to know that I, myself, have a romantic friend. I wasn't looking for her, as you are looking, but we happened by chance. So what you're looking for exists.... Ms. Lillian Marie, you have a very beautiful (quite rare) love that you're looking for, although not easy to maintain. I hope you find her...." Indeed I already have! In my heart deep down.... I believe that Redsoul was brought to me by Divine Intervention. In fact, I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that she is... The One. I've remained a single person for exactly ten (10) consecutive years, and it was soooooo worth it! Quoting Gabrielle in When Fates Collide,"When I'm with Redsoul-- this emptiness that I have felt my entire life-- is gone."

Just five days ago, I proposed to Redsoul on our first anniversary, asking a very serious question (that would determine our eternal fate). I asked Gabby to "marry" me. To be my Friend of friends, forever and ever as depicted in The Bostonians. Her answer? A resounding yes! On exactly Wednesday, November 14 2012 at 11:32pm I became the happiest & luckiest woman on earth. I tell you, no words in the English language, or in any other languages known to humankind, could begin to describe what I felt that "special" day. A deeply profound (if not spiritual) milestone event in my own life, that I will cherish forever! I know this sounds cheesy, but I can't help it.... That day was the day I thought I died and gone to Heaven.

Gabby honey, if you're reading this, I hope you feel exactly the same way too my girl.... I love you very much, I still do, and I always will. As promised in my blog/journal, you will receive the Soulmate Blue Card (with the illustrated Stars) & the Irish Friendship Love Claddagh Ring in sterling silver as shown in my Romantic Friendship website. I'm sorry it took THIS LONG to realize the person I'm looking for AND YOU are the "exact same person." *Eyes welling up with tears* I want to spend the rest of my life with you. To live together in a Boston marriage. To grow old and die together too.... I want to experience real life-long commitment, love & affection. With you sweetheart. *In a very quiet tone* My dear bosommate....

I want us to hold hands with fingers intertwined, hug tightly and never let go, kiss each other tenderly, dance (to your favorite music) and sleep together in warm blankets, share fun baths, send each other exotic flowers and write passionate poems... without any implication of homosexuality. To enjoy still winter evenings under the lamp, with falling snow outside, and tea on a little table while we discuss our bookworm passions... Get to know your family at a very personal-level including your dear mother Beth; and especially meet your extraordinary niece May & wonderful nephew Tony. Be with the lovable cute Teddy, your sweet ol' baby bird...

Finally, I want to take care of you and comfort you (in every single UC flareup) until my last dying breath. And no, its not because of the 'Florence Nightingale effect' *Soul-gazes into your eyes* I just want us to be together in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer, loving you on such a profound level, really putting up with each others' idiosyncrasies & flawed imperfections, making our Friendship the center of our lives, and that whatever happens, we are both willing to go through it together, no matter what. Amen! You know.... They may put "Miss" on my tombstone, but as far as I am concerned I haven't missed a thing.

Love You Always,
Lillian Marie Wilde The Bostonian Lady

P.S. And guess what! Today is my 28th birthday. My parents will take me to Olive Gardens at night around 8pm (an Italian restaurant; my very favorite) to celebrate. I will have coca-cola with 'a touch' of vanilla flavor, traditional classic lasagna, and some delicious garlic breads. A practically perfect way to end a practically perfect evening.... Because quoting Idgie Threadgoode from FGT: "I'm as settled as I ever hope to be."

Saturday, May 28, 2011

Dawn Of A New Era II

Notice these very intimate (and modern) photos of women are all about deep, profound, touching and romanticized Friendships in the absence of sex, lust & erotica. Unbeknownst to the photographers and the ones posing for it (who thought they were taking lesbian images) were in reality, actually shooting Romantic Friendship/Boston marriage pictures. Here are a few of my favorites:

You can view the rest of them in this breathtaking virtual animated album book I created below:

Dawn Of A New Era I

Notice these very intimate (and modern) photos of men are all about deep, profound, touching and romanticized Friendships in the absence of sex, lust & erotica. Unbeknownst to the photographers and the ones posing for it (who thought they were taking gay images) were in reality, actually shooting Romantic Friendship/Boston marriage pictures. Here are a few of my favorites:

You can view the rest of them in this breathtaking virtual animated album book I created below:

Sudden Inspiration

After finishing my whole journal/blog (whew, it is such a wonderful masterpiece!), a sudden inspiration came to me. I might decide to write a short collection of romantic friendship & Boston marriage stories. Who knows? I could be the next Louisa May Alcott or even better; the very next Katherine Fugate (chuckles). I honestly don't think I would ever become a professional writer, motivational speaker or start some kind of radical movement in real-life. But, if I do, then it would certainly be the dawn of a (new?) era when it comes to deep intimate (and profound) romantic friendship love stories!

A Hundred Years From Now...

Dear Lillian Marie,

“I read so many blogs, I read so much, and then when I need something to fill a void in my life, or a disappointing event, I read yours. I re-read. I go back and dissect the letters that form the words that form the sentences and the paragraphs. When I read your writing, I smile, I laugh, and when alone, I have cried at some of the feelings you have openly expressed in your blog. You have so profoundly affected me. I've shared with you what your writing has done for my soul. I have no idea who you are. I have only been able to piece together a quilt of something that resembles a very true, loyal, loving human being. Accolades my dear, you are so blessed."

Warm Regards,

So I can proudly say that--


It won't matter
What kind of car I drove
What kind of house I lived in
How much money I had in the bank
Nor what my clothes looked like
The world may be a little better
Because, I made a special and unique difference
In the life of a human being

Memorable Blog Quotes

While our sex lives have ballooned in the last hundred years, our friendships have grown stunted. ("So Are You Two Together?" June-July 2001 Article)

Ninny Threadgoode: "I found out what the secret to life is: friends. Best friends." (Fried Green Tomatoes)

In ancient times Friendship was seen as the "happiest and most fully human of all loves; the crown of life and the school of virtue." (Friendship Commitment Ceremony)

Did you know that the *dictionary definition* of Friendship in 1755 was “the highest form of intimacy”? (Friendship Commitment Ceremony)

Why does Yahoo list nearly one hundred sites on gay history but no sites on the history of friendship? (The Eternal Debate/Article 3)

No, it's not that kind of 'girl-on-girl action'. A girl crush is where you meet a woman whose sense of style or brilliant achievements or personal charisma makes you adore and worship her. (Anatomy Of A Girl Crush)

Orientations are not just limited to the "sexual" category. (Revelations II: Paradigm Shift)

Some people are married to "Jesus" (nuns and priests), some are married to their "spouses" (husbands/wives), some are married to their "jobs" (workaholics), but very few are married (or willing to marry) their "Friend." (Friendship Commitment Ceremony)

It's the what-ifs that drive many women away from closeness with each other. ("So Are You Two Together?" June-July 2001 Article)

One married woman, called Lisa, says: "If I knew I could trust a friendship with a woman — that there was a way of making a friendship into a bona fide, future-oriented relationship — I would rather have that than be married." ("So Are You Two Together?" June-July 2001 Article)

Prosecutor Percy: Why did you go with Idgie Threadgoode?
Judge: Answer the question Mrs. Bennett.
Ruth: Because she... she's the best Friend I ever had, and I love her.
(Fried Green Tomatoes)

Written by 27-year-old Zoe Zolbrod, it celebrated the passion that flashes up between women, even when they are both straight: ... "and in knowing them I would feel a rush of power and possibility, of total self, that seemed much more real to me than heterolove," Zolbrod wrote. When she met her friend V, "it was like finding the person you think you'll marry." The two moved in together. They took care of each other, became family, called each other "my love" and "my roommate" interchangeably. ("So Are You Two Together?" June-July 2001 Article)

The expectation that all “serious love relationships” should be sexual is a patriarchal notion. (Boston Marriage Definition website)

...And I understand now how precious and rare it is to feel that close to someone who isn’t also a sexual partner. (Dr.Dennison, creator of "Smart At Love" website)

...Yet in fact the passage is evidence of a belief that was once widely held in English-speaking countries but has now been largely forgotten: that romantic love need not be accompanied by erotic love. (The Eternal Debate/Article 3)

Women have been connecting in passionate friendships since the birth of our species. (Xena & Gabrielle: A Classic Revisitation Of The Romantic Friendship)

Perfectly respectable Victorian women wrote to each other in terms such as these: ‘I hope for you so much, and feel so eager for you… that the expectation once more to see your face again, makes me feel hot and feverish.’ They recorded the ‘furnace blast’ of their ‘passionate attachments’ to each other... In the nineteenth century, these sentiments were so respectable that surviving relatives often published them in elegies.... (Romantic Friendship from Wikipedia)

Bates referred to Coman as her "Joy of Life" and wrote many poems about their love. Only a few years before her death, she wrote to a friend, "So much of me died with Katharine Coman that I'm sometimes not quite sure whether I'm alive or not." (Prominent Women in Boston Marriages)

Idgie Threadgoode: "They may put "Miss" on my tombstone but as far as I am concerned I haven't missed a thing." (Fried Green Tomatoes)

In the ideal Victorian romantic friendship, although two friends could kiss, fondle each other, and hold one another all night long in sleep, there was no sex. (Xena & Gabrielle: A Classic Revisitation Of The Romantic Friendship)

These "romantic friendships" were not only common, but were considered quite normal, even "sweet", and in some instances, uplifting. (Xena & Gabrielle: A Classic Revisitation Of The Romantic Friendship)

This kind of unique relationship is my highest truth, my highest hope, my grandest dream, and my grandest vision. (A New Hope)

Women are 'brainwashed' to prefer men, to compete with other women for male recognition and love, to think of women as 'second best.' (The Psychology With Which Women Regard Other Women)

'Lesbianism' is merely a symbol of a wider taboo on female loyalty and allegiances of all kinds. (The Psychology With Which Women Regard Other Women)

Romantic friendship is renamed gay love or lesbianism because our modern notions of friendship do not allow for the possibility of friends embracing romantic activities. (The Eternal Debate/Article 3)

We have ceased to believe that it is possible for a man to deeply love another man, unless that love is sexually based. (The Eternal Debate/Article 3)

The price paid for the fear of men’s intimacy is high –– for all males, not just those who yearn for each other sexually. (Picturing Men)

"Why do adolescent boys often leave empty seats between each other when they go to the movies?" (Empty Seats)

There was a time in America when two men pictured with their arms wrapped around each other, or perhaps holding hands, weren't necessarily seen as sexually involved—a time when such gestures could be seen simply as those of intimate friendship rather than homoeroticism. (Picturing Men)

Though I'm proud to call you "Chocolate Bear," the crowd will always talk and stare. (Guy Love)

Examples of pre-modern standards of physical contact in the Gospels include John 13:23: "One of his disciples, whom Jesus loved, was lying close to the breast of Jesus." (Biblical Examples)

“Now it came about when [David] had finished speaking to Saul, that the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as himself.” Then they kissed each other and wept together. (Biblical Examples)

People’s interpretation of physical contact became extraordinarily ‘privatized and sexualized,’ so that all types of touching, kissing, and holding were seen as sexual foreplay rather than accepted as ordinary means of communication that carried different meanings in different contexts... (Romantic Friendship from Wikipedia)

I have a dream that perhaps homosexuality will be a thing of the past, and that we all should adopt the prim, proper attitudes of the Victorian Era once again (and bring it back 21st century-style)!!!
(I Have A Dream)

After reading my own journal/blog from beginning to end, I found myself staring at the computer screen for a very long time, became emotional, speechless and finally, tears spilled down my cheeks. That is because I slowly came to the realization this “love” goes beyond words; goes beyond categories and labels, and goes beyond what any piece of paper can declare. Yes, the "love" I'm talking about really has no name... (Blog Author)

Romantic Friendship Quotes

According to many school of thoughts located in several corners of the world, Romantic Friendship is by far the best form of Friendship that can ever exist between two individuals, either of the same or different sex. -- Blog Author

A Friend hears the song in my heart and sings it back to me when my memory fails. -- Unknown

"Ah, how I love you beyond belief, it paralyzes me. It makes me heavy with emotion.... I tremble at the thought of you. All my whole being leans out to you.... I dare not think of your arms." -- Rose Elizabeth Cleveland to her Friend Evangeline Simpson Whipple, (1890)

"Want to really look at yourself? The best mirror is an old Friend." -- George Herbert

A simple friend hears you. A good friend pays attention to you. A best friend gives you that special look. But, a Friend is the one who soul gazes into your eyes. -- Blog Author

"A Friend may well be reckoned the masterpiece of nature." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Simple friends casually chat together. Good friends have real genuine conversations. Best friends talk about anything under the sun. But, it is Friends who discuss the most sensitive stuff, talk about the most private matters, ask the most intimate questions, say the most risky things, ponder on the most uncomfortable subjects, and delve deep into each others' weird inner worlds that nobody else knows about. -- Blog Author

I've learned that you can love a Friend with as much intensity as a lover; even surpassing it. -- Blog Author

"One loyal Friend is worth ten thousand relatives." -- Euripides (408 B.C.)

"Who finds a good Friend, finds a treasure." -- Jewish Saying

A true loving Friend promises you, “I will never be the iceberg to your Titanic.” -- Chloe Sullivan to Clark Kent

True Friendship is for all eternity. -- Blog Author

A simple friend mentions nice things about you. A good friend recalls you with fondness. A best friend has a scrapbook of you. But, a Friend says you are the eternal sunshine of her spotless soul. -- Blog Author

A Friend gives you an affectionate kiss for no apparent reason at all. -- Blog Author

A Friend can tell you things you don't want to tell yourself. -- Frances Ward Weller

Being deeply loved by your Friend gives you strength, while loving your Friend deeply gives you courage. -- Lao Tzu

A simple friend has never seen you cry. A good friend has seen a tear (or two) form at the corner of your eye. A best friend has shoulders soggy from your tears. But, a Friend has seen you go through an earth shattering emotional catharsis. -- Blog Author

"However rare true love may be, it is less so than true Friendship."
-- La Rochefoucauld (1665)

Miscellaneous Character: "Do you have a significant other?"
Fox Mulder: (thinking of his unique Friend Dana Scully) "Not in the widely accepted definition of that term." -- The X-Files

A single rose can be my garden... a single Friend, my world. -- Leo Buscaglia

A simple friend hates it when you call after she has gone to bed. A good friend asks you why you took so long to call. A best friend is happy to talk to you on the phone until 3am. But, a Friend insists that you come over instead, wants to know your deep troubles, and cuddle/sleep with you in her bed the whole night. -- Blog Author

Love is blind; Friendship just closes its eyes. -- Unknown

“Will you be my Friend of friends? Forever and ever?” -- The Bostonians (1984 DVD)

To lose a Friend is hardship, but to forget her is as if you died too. -- Blog Author

Your Friend will know you better in the first year you meet than your old friends will know you in a thousand years. -- Blog Author

A Friend is someone with whom you dare to be emotionally, spiritually, and psychologically naked with. -- Blog Author

"Stay" is a charming word in a Friend's vocabulary. -- Louisa May Alcott

“I shall love her all my life, shall be to her a faithful Friend. You call this folly; to me it is a hard duty, and the more I love her, the worthier of her will I endeavor to become by my own integrity of soul.” -- Louisa May Alcott

When you have a Friendship like that, it can feel so mystical... so otherworldly... -- Blog Author

What is a Friend? A soul dwelling in two bodies. -- Aristotle

A Friend knows your deepest & innermost desires. -- Blog Author

You like and care about your simple friends. You cherish your good friends. You love your best friends with all your heart. But, you love your Friend with every fiber of your being. -- Blog Author

"Every man passes his life in the search after Friendship." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson

The only unsinkable ship is Friendship. -- Jeff Sczpanski

True Friendship is like sound health; the value of it is seldom known until it be lost. -- Charles Caleb Colton (1825)

The way I see it, saying romantic friendship is like 'a subcategory' to homosexuality or at least 'the stepchild' of lesbianism is the general equivalent of saying Belle's intense romantic love for the Beast is like 'a subcategory' to bestiality or at least 'the stepchild' of zoophilia erotica. Yes, it is that absurd. Because their love was truly a living force of its own; deserving a unique and special category all by itself. It is no wonder then, their passionate love was best described as a tale as old as time, a tune as old as song, a song as old as rhyme, and as certain as the sun rising in the east! -- Blog Author

Life without a Friend is like death without a witness. -- Spanish Proverb

"Friendship is Love without his wings!" -- Lord Byron (1806)

National Friendship Day is on the first Sunday in August. International Friendship Month is February. Old Friends, New Friends Week is the third week of May. I, myself, declare Romantic Friendship Day to be on November 19. -- Blog Author

St. Jonathan is the Patron Saint of Friendship. I, Lillian Marie, am the self-proclaimed Patron Saint of Romantic Friendship. -- Blog Author

A true Friend loves you, not for what you are, but for what she is when she’s with you. -- Roy Croft

You come to love not by finding the perfect Friend, but by seeing an imperfect Friend perfectly. -- Sam Keen

A Friend is the life of the soul. It is the harmony of the universe. -- William Ellery Channing

We call a person who has lost her mother, an orphan; and a widow a woman who has lost her husband. But, a woman who has known the immense unhappiness of losing a Friend, by what name do we call her? Here, every language is silent, and holds its peace in impotence. -- ALarson 1.25.02