A New Hope

At last, I found out "the truth", gained "a new insight" about the world around me, had a "paradigm shift" within me, and found "my purpose" in life. So what exactly do I want? Actually, a meaningful long-term (no, make that eternal) monogamous intimate romantic nonsexual relationship with my future ladylove. Of course, I'm very aware that my chances of finding her are a googol (yes, that's the very highest number in the mathematical language) to one. I've already accepted this grim fact. Yet, I have tremendous faith, and won't give up Hope.


I also realized another thing. The term, "Romantic Friendship" means so much more than "romantic activities" Friends do together. It took me a long while to see this. Yes, romantic friendship is really about intense loyalty and devotion towards one another, taking care of your Friend in sickness and in health, for richer or poorer, loving the other person on such a profound level, really putting up with each others' idiosyncrasies, making your Friendship the center of your lives, and that whatever happens, you are both willing to go through it together, no matter what.

So now I can stop mulling over whether to be straight, lesbian or single. Because there is a THIRD WAY of life... There is actually a THIRD CHOICE... That there is ANOTHER WAY... A DIFFERENT and UNIQUE path... one that doesn't cause me to have a guilty conscience or conflict with my deep-rooted beliefs and values.... And yes, that is Boston marriage/romantic friendship. Yes, I'm a Bostonian, and proud of it! Just one problem left: How do I find another Bostonian like me? Or more specifically, how do I find another Gabrielle (like me) in this modern world?? Because this kind of unique relationship is my highest truth, my highest hope, my grandest dream, and my grandest vision.